3 Dinosaurs + Happy Boy = Proud Mommas

I'm feeling so proud of my boy right about now (and hoping I'm not about to jinx things) Kiddo had hit a rough patch at school where he wasn't making the best choices or following directions and this was resulting in him loosing his dinosaurs. Each kid starts the day with 3 and the goal is to keep them. When the kiddo was having a hard time keeping them we put our heads together and came up with a reward system at home as an incentive to keep these dinos. So far it is working wonderfully. It makes me a very happy mommy when I get to see the excitement and pride on his face when he tells us that he had all 3 dinos that day. Way-to-go, kiddo!

I feel like I've failed him once again...

Asshole wrote an email just before the kiddo's birthday asking if he could see him. Once again we gave in and made arrangements to meet at the bowling alley on a Saturday morning so that they could spend a couple of hours together. We met, they bowled, he even congratulated me on my wedding and things overall went better than I had anticipated. This was almost a month ago. We've not heard anything from him since. My biggest fear in even letting this happen was that he would disappear again and it's exactly what happened. I did it for the kiddo and in the end I just set him up for disappointment once again. This makes me want to cut him out all together, to not acknowledge his calls or emails when they come again in who-knows how many months from now.